Month: January 2013

Our 2012 in Review

  • January 2012 – Relieved 2011 was gone we started fresh, saying ‘This will be a better year!’
  • 19 January 2012 – My Mum passed away – exactly the day a year after I got pregnant with Hope & Passion
  • 22 January 2012 – We arrive in Switzerland after heaps of rushed organization of passport etc to help organize my Mother’s funeral
  • February – return to Australia, starting to organize an oversea’s move, processing life without a daughter and mother
  • April – packing boxes
  • May – more boxes… and a well deserved holiday
  • July – Nonno arrives to help
  • 4 August 2012 – We fly to Switzerland. The final step of a long and lengthy prepared move
  • rest of the year — unpacking
  • December – Christmas without…

2012 in review

The stats helper monkeys prepared a 2012 annual report for this blog.

Here’s an excerpt:

600 people reached the top of Mt. Everest in 2012. This blog got about 9,400 views in 2012. If every person who reached the top of Mt. Everest viewed this blog, it would have taken 16 years to get that many views.

Click here to see the complete report.

You’ve Got to be Strong Now…

~ A lonely walk  ~

~ A lonely walk ~

A year ago I woke up finding text messages from my sister asking me to call her upon waking. She never sent text messages so I knew something wasn’t good. As I was still breast-feeding my baby, I was up at odd hours of the early morning but for unknown reason was not able to reach any one of my family (they all lived overseas). What was going on? I wondered, fearing the worst… Until I finally connected with them.

I was laying in my bed, my daughter beside me. I had spoken to my Mum and Dad the night before on video call. There they were now, my Dad, my sister and my niece, all in my dad’s study in front of the computer on video. Not my Mum. I could immediately tell this wasn’t good. His words were: ‘You’ve got to be strong now…’ and I immediately knew. (more…)

Gone, Gone, Forever Gone

~ <3 ~


As I’m approaching the first anniversary of my Mother’s death I’m finding myself just a little bit challenged: even more angry than usually, less emotionally strong, wondering whether it’s just me… Oh yeah, what else would you expect?

Today when I mentioned to someone that I’m still really angry at ‘my Mum leaving us’ she gave me some suggestions like ‘maybe you should try to be compassionate?’ She meant well. I’m sure. But no, I don’t need to be told ‘not to be angry’, that’s just the fastest way to get me angry…

The same person said that ‘as long as your mother is alive you’ll always be a daughter’. Well, she’s 64 and her mother is in the 90s so they do have some life experience but she has yet to experience being a daughter when the mother is dead. I know what she meant. She meant well… (more…)